The young woman was sitting in the detective’s office. She answered all his questions and told him everything, without concealing a thing. She had nothing to conceal. She admitted her guilt. Of course she was guilty, but was it really her fault?
* * *
‘Honey, aren’t you afraid that I will accidentally strangle you? As I am unable to control myself during it. I simply cannot. I am not joking. I am afraid of myself, so I am worried about you, Darling. There is nothing I can do about it.’
‘Don’t be afraid, my love. It wouldn’t be so easy to strangle me. I think I could protect myself against your passionate arms. You know, I am so happy to hear that from you.’
And he undoubtedly was happy not only to hear her, but to see and feel her as well. They have been married for a long time and loved each other dearly. They couldn’t imagine their lives without each other. They didn’t have children, and it was no reason for them to break up. After going to work, his only desire was to come back home as soon as possible to his beloved wife. She also did her best to make time pass faster. By the time he came home, she would always be transformed into a completely different person.
She had become aware of the irresistible desire to strangle him during intimacy long ago. And that desire would arouse her even more. She was afraid of it. She tried to fight with herself, but her efforts were futile. She was scared. But there was nothing she could do.
Her husband liked it. Of course he didn’t believe she could strangle him. He was extremely happy to see his wife’s delight. He would joke later saying:
‘Darling, what have you done to my neck? It sometimes makes it hard to breathe. I thought I was just about to suffocate.’
To what his wife would anxiously reply.
‘You see? What if I really strangle you?’
‘Don’t worry, dear. You can’t even imagine how happy I am with you. When I think about the pleasure you get it makes me lose my mind.’
But she was still frightened. What if her embraces become stronger?
He kept joking about it…
‘Even if you strangle me, it would be such a joy to die in your arms.’
‘Don’t say that, honey. There is a grain of truth in every joke.’
‘Don’t make me laugh, my love. No one has ever died from it. I am happy I can give you such pleasure.
That night was magical. He was unpredictable and passionate. She didn’t even try to help herself.
They were wildly loving each other. She was literally exhausted and in a state of euphoria.
And then when she regained her senses , she realized that the thing that she was most afraid of had happened.
The lifeless body of her much loved husband lay on the bed next to her...